Warning: (This is the ranting of a 30 something year old female jealous that her baby factory is currently and 95% permanently defunct and is bearing her deepest, innermost feelings on the subject! Viewer discretion may be advised)
Most of my friends had babies this summer, and now I'm finding out about a whole other slew of people who are pregnant and due next spring! I am so happy for them, but it brings on a whole other set of emotions for me that I'm have a hard time dealing with, though it's not aimed at any one person or because of only one person. It's the whole notion of being pregnant.
Yes, I am thankful that I have 2 wonderful, amazing sweet boys. They are my whole life and my sunshine!
I just always wanted more. I wanted a big family. I thought we'd have a big family. And yet, that's not a gift that Heavenly Father can give me right now.
I just always wanted more. I wanted a big family. I thought we'd have a big family. And yet, that's not a gift that Heavenly Father can give me right now.
So - please - from my tender heart to yours - please don't be the kind of person that chooses to have ONLY 2 kids, or chooses to be finished by the time they're 25, or chooses to wait until they finish school & then complain because they are surprised with a pregnancy before that or chooses to stop when they have one of each, or chooses not to be excited about being pregnant at all - - because there are people like me who don't have the choice.
But I realize that I can't have more kids because there is a plan for each of us (that sometimes we don't think is fair). But I get to be the FUN "Aunt" to everyone else's kids. :)
Yes, I enjoy the cards that God has given to me. I make the best of them that I can. But it's only human to wish for things the way you want them, instead of the way they are meant to be.
So love your kiddos! and tell them "Aunt Ane" loves them with a big hug and a SMILE! :D
"That's all I hav' to say 'bout that." Forest Gump
4 comments:
It's nice to have a place to just air stuff like this.
Bless you!
It's obvious that you have your Young Women for a reason and you do have two awesome little boys!
Thanks Cam!!! I could Hug you!!
{{{{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}}}}}}} :)
Well, I love you very much. We've talked about this subject, I know, but I just want you to know you always have my support.
You are always so positive about what life gives you! I totally admire your spirituality.
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